Remember that thing you told yourself you were going to do? Why haven’t you done it yet? What is stopping you from doing “the thing”?
For me, “the thing” was going back to school to get my BSN. I knew I had to get it to remain competitive in my field. It is almost impossible to advance from being a bed side nurse without at least a BSN. Yet, I kept finding every excuse not to do “the thing”. “I can’t get financial aid so I can’t afford it”. “It’s going to take a year or more for me to get this degree”. “I don’t have the time to study”.
Continue to insert bullshit excuses for four years.
In that time I did actually attempt to go back to school. The program I chose was not for me AND I did not dedicate myself to completing it. I wasn’t serious about it so I flunked out. After that I started back with the excuses… until I had no choice but to go back to school and get this degree.
At the time I was working at a hospital that I hated. While I was in an ICU setting, which is what I wanted, the place I worked did not care about their patients. It was about profit. I don’t do well in that type of an environment, I am far too much of a patient advocate for that. For me to get out of there and back into a teaching hospital, I either had to have a BSN or be willing to complete one within five years of hire. Looks like your girl was going back to school whether I wanted to or not!
I won’t lie, school damn near broke me. I paid completely out of pocket so I had to get a high interest loan, took a PRN position in what can only be described as Hell, and took multiple term breaks just to not have a mental breakdown. What could have easily been completed in about a year and a half or less took me three years. My degree just came in the mail.
This has been a learning experience for me. It made me realize there are multiple ways to do ” the thing”. It also made me realize I needed to be realistic with the timeline I created to do “the thing”. Whether it took one year or five, those years were going to pass anyway. I could either use that time wisely or I could continue to watch the years progress. I had to learn to readjust and keep going.
So I say to you, what is keeping you from doing your “thing”? Could you have done “the thing” in the time you have spent finding excuses? You can do this. Whatever that “thing” is, you have the ability to accomplish it. Take that first step, all the steps after that will seem a whole lot easier. You’ve got this.