I have had many people ask me why I blog. I tell them that it is my way off getting things off of my chest and out of my head. Of course the next question is: why don’t you just talk to someone? Why you ask? I don’t “talk” because I don’t want to. When I blog I don’t have to hear the obvious pity in your voice. I don’t feel like having the bible thrown at me, I get it-pray more that fixes everything. I don’t have to see the disparaging look on your face as you hear what is really on my mind. I don’t have to listen to your pretend sincerity and concern. I don’t have to have you interupt everything I say because you feel the need to give me your “expert” advice. I don’t have to listen to you tell me that I am wrong for feeling the way I feel. I don’t have to hear the “sunshine and rainbows” bullshit that you want me to believe. I can say what I need to say without judgement. I don’t have to censor myself. I can cry as I express myself and no one can see me at my weakest. I don’t have to worry that you won’t understand how I feel, my words understand me perfectly. I am not a talker, I don’t like to verbalize my feelings. I will express myself the best way I know how so accept the way I am. This post is NOT directed at one person or one particular moment. This is to all of you, all of you that feel I need to share my feelings, all of you that think you want to know how I am feeling. If you really want to know, read the blog because that is the closest you will get to expression.